( An approximation of how I feel right now: )

23,000 WORDS, BITCHESSSSS. I have been working on this fic since AUGUST. I mean, I still need to edit and tighten up a few parts, but I finally have all the glitches worked out and it's a complete story. FINALLY. IT FEELS SO GOOD.

All told, I wrote SIX WHOLE THINGS for this round of blindfold_spn! I'm pretty stoked about that, even though... you know. They're kink ficlets, and therefore pretty inherently cringeworthy. It felt good to just open up a document and run with an idea, no matter how crazy or out of bounds it seemed.

I also learned some fun things about my own psyche. HAHA. It's so hard for me to write kink fic without wanting to toss my own kinks on the pile. I get in the zone and have to keep reminding myself that, no, not everyone likes the term "daddy" popping up in their porn. But I realized after organizing my ficlets to repost that, uh, I kind of gravitated to the same kind of prompts each time. Apparently if it involves wee Sam or panties, I'm there with BELLS ON.

I reposted everything I wrote over there (with one exception, which is too face-meltingly embarrassing):

1. Keep It Professional. Jared/Jensen AU, NC-17, 1138 words. Cross-dressing Jensen is Mr. Padalecki's new "girl" assistant. Jared doesn't realize that she is actually a he until he has her bent over his desk, ass in the air.

2. Things You Remember. Sam Wesson/Dean, NC-17, 770 words. Dean gets his memories back, but Sam doesn't

3. Unruffled. Sam/Dean, R, 1309 words. Weecest! Sam growing wings. Pre-series. Dean gets seriously turned on by them.

4. Good Job, Kiddo. Sam/Dean, NC-17, 1527 words. Sam gets de-aged to around 13 with his memories intact. Dean's reluctant to continue their relationship at first, but can't resist Sam.

5. Under Wraps. Sam/Dean, NC-17, 1163 words. Dean wearing panties, stockings and a garter belt.

My feelings on these are kind of all over the place. sdglksdg The only one that I REALLY ACTUALLY like is Unruffled, which is hilarious because it's wingfic. I have made it nine years in fandom without ever feeling the need to submit to that particular cliche, but for some reason my heart melted when I read that prompt. I wasn't able to really do the concept justice (if there can ever be justice for wingfic) in comment form, but suffice it to say that I'm kind of smitten with the idea of awkward teenage Sam with wings. EMBARRASING BUT TRUE.

I also enjoyed writing Under Wraps, I think because I used it as an opportunity to write about Sam and Dean on the road with nothing more important on their minds than panties. Realism schmealism! I miss not having to account for epic levels of baggage if I want to write Sam and Dean in the same room.

Anyway, this is what I've been up to the last few nights. PORN!! PANTIES!!! WINGS!!!! Honestly, I don't really know what I'm going to do with myself now that Blindfold has shut back down! I guess I could go back to writing real stuff, but that's no fun. Kinkmeme, maybe?

Under Wraps. Sam/Dean, NC-17, 1163 words. Mild cross-dressing. Written for blindfold_spn

Prompt: Dean wearing panties, stockings, and a garter belt.

( They'd been on the road for three hours, not counting a piss stop in Oklahoma. )

Unruffled. Sam/Dean, R, 1309 words. Weecest, wingfic, schmoop! Written for blindfold_spn.

Prompt: Sam growing wings. Pre-series. Dean gets seriously turned on by them.

( It's never been easy for Sam to keep secrets from Dean. )

Good Job, Kiddo. Sam/Dean, NC-17, 1527 words. Age-play, dirty talk, PWP. Written for blindfold_spn.


Prompt: Sam gets de-aged to around 13 with his memories intact. Dean's reluctant to continue their relationship at first, but can't resist Sam.

( It's so fucked up. )

Things You Remember. Sam Wesson/Dean, NC-17, 770 words. Dubcon-ish. Written for blindfold_spn.

Prompt: Smith/Wesson, Dean gets his memories back, but Sam doesn't.

( They told him to save him. To stop him from what he was doing at any cost. )

Keep it Professional. Jared/Jensen AU, NC-17, 1138 words. Clothes kink, cross-dressing, genderplay! Written for blindfold_spn.

Prompt: Cross-dressing Jensen is Mr. Padalecki's new "girl" assistant. "She" keeps distracting him with the way she dresses everyday - it's like high fashion fetish wear in work appropriate fabrics. Jared doesn't realize that she is actually a he until he has her bent over his desk, ass in the air. Jenny was already his dirty girl, with this additional kink Jared is thrilled.


( This is it. This is what he's been after for weeks now. )

Soooo I thought I'd do that WIP meme. The definition of "progress" is very loose.

( Somehow I have FIFTEEN DIFFERENT WIPS represented here. )

What Comfort It Brings. Sam/Dean, R, 4700 words. Winchesters are good at rolling with the punches. Thanks to vinylroad and valiant for reading this over for me.

( Eighteen miles out of Cessily, the car gets a flat tire. )

Bachelor Buttons. Jensen/Jared, NC-17, 4200 words. Your heart is a neighborhood and the crime rate is going up.


( This is wedding fic, but not the J2 kind. )

FIRST OF ALL, valiant wrote the most amazing Office fic. Sometimes Co-Workers Use It For Sex. It's smutty, porny, adorable Jim/Pam, and I love it more than life. Seriously, read it. The character voices are insanely spot-on, and it's CREAMPIE PORN. Jesus.


In the spirit of lobbing smut fic out there... have some more J2! This has been sitting in my WiP folder way too long.

New Rules. Jensen/Jared, NC-17, 2,492 words. Total PWP, with D/s elements and twice the blowjobbery of leading brands.

( Sometimes Jensen does push-ups in his trailer. )

This is just some nasty-ass porn. Edie said it was postable.


Slick and Sticky. Jensen/Jared, NC-17, 1,209 words. PWP. At a club, in a bathroom, there is a blowjob.

( Smut smut smut. )

I wanted to write ~*~Supernatural schmoop~*~, but I just can't seem to make it happen. I guess Sam and Dean are too angsty in my head for fluffball romance.

Jared and Jensen, however, have basically exchanged Best Friends Forever necklaces, and magical rainbow gayness spews forth when the two halves of the heart charm meet. So banging out a little something with them wasn't really hard. Um, my ficlets all follow the exact same narrative pattern, so this is similar to BFAW and my other J2.



The View From Here. Jared/Jensen, NC-17. 1562 words. This fic is about NOTHING, and schmoop. And porn. Un fucking beta read!

( tralala. )

For My Next Trick. Sam/Dean, NC-17, 10,405 words. Sam's eighteen, Dean's twenty-two, and growing up is hard.

( this way. )

Sigh. I wrote this about a year ago, back when I was having a love affair with Firefly, and never got around to posting it publicly. But in the interest of Lamness Amnesty Week (yes, that's still going on. yes, it's been like three weeks or something. LAW ain't over 'til I say it's over.) - and because it was the only way I could get valiant to post some SPN fic (!!) - HERE IT IS. In all of its itty-bitty ficlet glory.

me: lmfao i seriously cannot think of any kind of summary to give this fic. *spews facetious ideas*
edie: you could give a list of excellent summaries such as these.
edie: multiple choice summary.
me: I LIKE THIS IDEA. clearly this is what i will do.


Lost in Space. Firefly, PG-13. gen-ish angst. 1501 words.

A. "We love you, Simon!"/"I wanna fuck you too!"
B. FUCK EVERYTHING: a beat poem by simon tam
C. Tea With Simon's Inner Asshole
D. All of the above?

( Answer: D, All of the above. AND MORE! )

Summer Blackout. Sam/Dean, underage, NC-17. 11,740 words. When Dean is seventeen, they spend five months being normal.


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