Okay, so valiant asked me to write a snippet of Nick Jonas as the crossroads demon from Supernatural, so... CROSSOVER FIC? This really has no point other than the OMG factor of tiny little Nick Jonas power-tripping at big, burly Dean Winchester.


Poor Unfortunate Souls. Dean Winchester, demon!Nick Jonas, PG-13, 1,200 words. Nick may have spent the last five years out of the pit, but he'd still recognize Dean Winchester anywhere.

( Nick Jonas and the Administration... OF HELLISH TORTURE. )

I can't believe it's September! Fall is really upon us. I'm always overwhelmed with the urge to buy school supplies and clothes this time of year, even when I have absolutely no reason to. My kingdom for the smell of a fresh pack of number 2 pencils. *_*

So Driving Down the Darkness, my SPN season one coda, was selected for spnroundtable's book club discussion this month. Nice! I've always had a lot of fondness for that story. I wrote it right at the peak of my SPN obsession, when I really had a lot of things to say about the universe and ideas that I wanted to explore. In retrospect there are a lot ways it could have been tightened up, but it still makes me happy that I wrote something that spanned the entirety of season one. SEASON ONE! It seems so arcane now, on the eve of S5.

Speaking of Supernatural, I've been thinking lately that I want to see a SPN friending meme. I know there are SO MANY people in this fandom that I don't know, and I'd love to make some new SPN friends as we head into the new season. I saw this one today, but it seemed heavily biased in its questions -- ie, "Are you a Sam fan? If so, why?" HAHA, DNW. Does anyone know of a less biased friending meme going down? SHOULD I MAKE ONE?? Does anyone else but me want new friends?

sdlkjf Tonight I accidentally introduced my five-year-old nephew to PEANUT BUTTER JELLY TIME, and eight viewings later it is INGRAINED IN MY BRAIN. I am never going to recover.

What I Hate Most in Life: Starting a fic, realizing four paragaphs in that you want no part of it, but somehow being too invested to not read the next 5000+ words.

HOW. DOES THIS. HAPPEN. I fail at hitting the back button my browser.

I've been reading a lot of Sam/Dean lately, though (after a stretch of primarily reading J2), and thinking a lot about what you can do with the pairing at this point.

( Cut for some blah blah blah about season three and what we've got of four. )

Oh, happy Rosh Hashanah, Jews!

This is an instance of "I couldn't find what I was looking for, so I did it myself". A filthy, somewhat schmoopy coda to 4.01. I'd feel guilty on both counts, but I had a crappy weekend and this is how I cheered myself up.


Not That I Need Proof. Sam/Dean, NC-17, 4385 words. Basically a PWP coda to 4.01, and thus (obviously!) spoilery for that ep.

( Not that I need proof. )

Haha, I'm such a liar. :[ It's not my fault; valiant got me to watch Mystery Spot and Jus In Bello, and... I had to write fic. This takes place between the two episodes.

Wolves at the Door. Sam/Dean, R, 2,260 words. Things can't ever be the same. Sam can't be, anyway.

( Read more... )

What Comfort It Brings. Sam/Dean, R, 4700 words. Winchesters are good at rolling with the punches. Thanks to vinylroad and valiant for reading this over for me.

( Eighteen miles out of Cessily, the car gets a flat tire. )

It's DECEMBER. I... don't even know what to do with that information. It feels like it was just summer, or at the very least just Halloween. Jeez.

There is a storm warning for my area right now, with ~hundred mile per hour winds~. It's looked ambiguously like dusk or dawn like ever since the sun came up, which feels vaguely post-apocalyptic. Somewhat appropriately, I spent my whole morning reading mpreg fic. I don't know why! I didn't mean to! And I feel really uncomfortable about the fact that I actually enjoyed it. Perhaps this is a downward spiral sparked off by my interest in het lately. If I ever write kidfic, feel free to shoot me.

In all seriousness though, my brain seems to be suffering some kind of Wincest backlash. I really need to find my way back to writing that pairing with my own interests in mind, because in writing something as huge as Driving Down the Darkness - and doing it for so long - I had to keep reframing the way I saw Sam/Dean. I filtered out a lot of random details and anecdotes I might have otherwise throw in to make myself happy, just because I was conscious of not wanting to disrupt the general feeling of season one. It's entirely possible that I didn't meet that goal anyway, but that was the challenge of writing the story at all! Aaaand now I'm awkwardly trying to find my way back into my Wincest comfort zone, plagued by the paranoid sensation that I might be fucking with canon too much. May the feeling pass quickly.

I found this link via an icon post that's since been taken down, but there's a lot of mind-blowingly lovely Sam/Dean (and J2) artwork over here. Some of it is delightedly NSFW. The site's in Japanese, so fuck if I know anything it says at allll, but still. HOT. (I've taken the links down because the artist in question might not want them linked.)

Pigeon Holes. John/Jo, Dean/Jo. NC-17. 1300 words. She does the same thing twice.

( The dad came first. )

You know, SPN fandom should really count its blessings when it comes to wank. It's never fun to see drama in your community, but you would think by now that everyone would stop being... surprised by it. Fandom is wanky! Planes crash! Clowns kill!

People liking or disliking porn where Jensen is fat =/= stalkers, using fannish involvement to get people fired from RL jobs, pseuicide, sockpuppets, plagiarism, ripping people off for fake cons, hate memes, astral wives, and everything else to ever make it to fandom_wank. Y'all are getting your panties in a wad over what's tantamount to a slapfight in the ladies room, while other fandoms are covered in shrapnel and have malaria from their time in 'Nam. And the majority of people in those fandoms aren't OMGing around about how fandom has become a mean and unfriendly place.

A little perspective goes a looooooong way toward keeping your head from exploding.

Driving Down the Darkness. Sam/Dean. NC-17. 40,000 words. A coda to season one.


one | two | three | four | five | six | seven | eight

( Notes. )

Driving Down the Darkness. Sam/Dean. NC-17. 40,000 words. A coda to season one. Index is here.

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Allow me to preface this by mentioning that I have a lo-o-o-ong plotty fic with betas at the moment, so, y'know. I haven't completely fallen off the horse of actual writing. Porn just fills in the blanks nicely!


Exit Wounds | Sam/Ruby | NC-17 | 1700 words | kinda sorta maybe dark!Sam?

( There was a time he'd never have done something like this. )